Second Day... and the story continues...

So finally I decided to come back and write something.
You know what. Since it's been long time that I opened my blog page, so I decided to read what i wrote last time and while I was reading my last blog, I got lost in the moments. I never ended my last blog but let me end it now before I start new one. "I moved out of last place" END.
I know no one is going to read it, but still let me write it in a way so that in case some one read it anytime, he/she does not feel bored :)
So, lets start. You must be thinking that I must have fucked up again and that's why I am back. Actually yes, it's partially true. I was running or you may call hiding from all these emotions and feelings all this time but you know when life wants to fuck u, it never ask for permission. It's the worst thing I would ever let happen to me, but as we all know opportunity and shit does not knock before hitting you. This time again, I got a hit. But this one is funny. This time I experimented with myself.
So this time again, this shitty thing what we call feelings, yes feelings, it hit me again for this girl who works in the same office as i do, not sure if she has feelings too. She is friendly, honest, full of flavors, funny, smart, sexy and confident. In other words she is a Complete Character :). And most of all she is real.
I did my best to avoid and stop myself from entering into this Danger Zone of Love. But I wish God would have given controllers in our hand. so it hit me hard from no where and before I could realize I was in Danger Zone. I started to hang out with her, spent most of my time to know here more and more and started feeling that this time its for real, I like everything about her, there was nothing for what i could say that i don't like her....you know what actually yes there is thing that I must mention that i like but its not right. She has this naughtiness of messing up with people for no reason,. When I say messing up, I mean as in a funny way.
So, now you all know i was fucked up by now and still could not help myself. I was just going with the flow, or seems like some one else was controlling me or pushing me to go and get fucked up. So once again life acted in a bitchy way and played another game with me. Why? I am still trying to find an answer for that. If you are reading this and know the answer then please please please let me know.
I got this feeling that I might end up again in friend zone which i can't handle. Honestly being in friend zone sucks big time ...we all know it so lets admit ;)
By the time you are reading this blog, I don't know where I am and what I am doing. May be life did not ditch me or may be I got fucked up badly this time. I simply don't know but I am still trying for this girl.
In last few days things turned very ugly and i guess i made my mind to not to try any more or be in friend zone. Let's try turning things around this time and prove that I still own my life and no one can just come and fuck me up. If you love me, then you need to show me or at least give me some clues.............